Beauty School Bothers

So this does apply primarily to being in a school full of women and feminine men, but this can be applied anywhere.

Women need to stop feeling so insecure about themselves and lashing out at other women. It is so ridiculous and so immature. I thought that these childish antics would end as women graduated from high school and entered out into the real world-but, from what I have observed, is that women still bring that "High School Mean Girl Mentality" into the real world and can be even more child like. Not to mention, it is really petty seeing grown women gossiping about a "friend", a coworker, or even a classmate just because they are so insecure in their own bodies that they have to bring down another women just to feel validated.

I'm not going to lie and say that I haven't done this, but I really do try  to be more conscious of what I choose to talk about and who I am around. Everyone should just be happy with themselves. Honestly, every one is beautiful and unique and what isn't great about that? Just because someone looks differently than you, with whatever thought you may be thinking about them, doesn't make them any less beautiful or validated. And if you're doing that to women, do not be surprised when karma comes to bite you right in the booty.

Also how some women are just so needy and self centered and wanting of men's attention. And I get it, having a man attracted to you is flattering, yes, but it's not the most important thing in the world. A male's opinion of you really means nothing compared to you're own opinion of yourself. And when I had my guy friend come in today to get a massage and seeing how all these women immediately started becoming infatuated with him really disgusted me and embarrassed me.

They were talking in such a vulgar and immature way. Saying how "nice his ass looked" and what his name was and how old he was. And most of these women either have boyfriends and kids or are married with kids. It honestly just disgusted me as I was being pressed for questions. Just how did it become that women feel like every man in the universe has to be so focused on them solely for the purpose of feeling good about themselves? And why use such terms about male's body parts in such a nasty way. They made the body just seem like an object.

One of my friends was like, "I just want to massage men now. I like their bodies better and I hate women." It's like, "Sweetheart, stop it. This may be why you have such insecurities about the relationships in your life. Stop it." I love her like a sister, but it just really urked me when she said that and I knew that it was because she loves the attention. It's so sad.

I am just becoming really bothered by more things I am seeing, hearing, reading, and experiencing. This really makes me feel almost disgusted by my own gender in general. And I know that not all women are like this, and I truly appreciate the beautiful women that are not, but how the majority of women are going is really disturbing and inappropriate and are setting up horrible role model material for younger women.

You Are Loved!

This is just a post for any one out there who is feeling kind of low and/or lonely this holiday season.<3

You are so loved! Each and every day, be thankful that you are still alive, that you can live another day. We take the little things in life for granted, but someday, we will realize the little things in life are the biggest gifts.

Think of your family, think of your friends, think of yourself. You are cared about by so many people.

Self love is crucial, and so many of us do not cultivate it within ourselves. Every inch of you is perfectly unique and special and beautiful. Do you know how much your body does to keep you alive and moving each day? It does so many things to make sure that you are taken care of and that you are safe and functioning and healthy. You should appreciate every inch of you, every perfectly created part of you. Self harm does nothing for your soul or your body. You are not able to reach to the higher self of your being. I truly believe that this is the most important part of any one's life. "You will be longer with yourself than anyone else" and you should love yourself enough for yourself.

Here are somethings just to remember:

*Smile each day, not only will it help you feel better, smiles are contagious.

*Look at yourself every day in the mirror and focus on all the wonderful qualities you possess, not just the superficial ones. It's funny how true the saying "Beauty is only skin deep". Everything on the top layer of your body; your skin, your nails, your hair, etc. is dead. We focus so much on external factors to enhance the "deadness" of our skin, and don't focus on the inner qualities. It's kind of funny, in a sad way. Why are we so focused on masking ourselves when in the end it doesn't matter?

It's not that I'm against makeup or jewelry or pretty clothes. I love it just as the next, and I'm super girly, but I don't agree that makeup should "mask" someone. It should be used to enhance our already beautiful features; female or male. But remember the characteristics you posses: your sweetness, your intelligence, you strength, your sense of self. It's so important that we focus on the inside, so that it will reflect love and beauty on the outside.

*Say affirmations to yourself every day. Start with something as simple as, "I am healthy, happy, and whole." (That was actually my first affirmation ever my mom told me to say once I wake up, through out my day, and once I go to bed.) And you can put whatever words together for your affirmations. What you say, your mind will believe. So instead of putting negative words into your mind and creating negativity inside of yourself; manifest love and light and positivity.

*Remember that were "Thoughts go, Energy flows". Do not allow dark energy to over power your soul. It's good to recognize the dark energy for what it is, but do not allow it to influence you. Yin and Yang.

*I believe that everyone has a soul mate out there, whether it be romantic or not. Never feel that suicide is the only option. You are here to find that soul mate and if you take your life, that person will be left to wander and wonder where you are.

*Your family loves you. Your mother, your father, your siblings, your grandparents, your cousins, your aunts and uncles. They love you indefinitely. You are so important to them, so special, such an important part of their life. You will always have family. They are the people who will always love you at your worst and at your best.

YOU MATTER.

YOU ARE THE MOST PERFECT YOU THAT IS OUT THERE.

YOU ARE LOVED.

I hope this helped anyone who may need some love and happiness in their life. <3

"The flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all."
-Mulan

Starting Another Chapter

I am ready to have a job again. It was nice not having to go to work and to just relax. Just having to take care of me. But being an adult comes with responsibilities, a lot of them having to do with money. And I am so ready to start making money again.

It is not cheap being off on your own. It is not cheap having to raise a family, and I am far from ready to do that. I'm still just a baby, and I need to be able to take care of myself in all aspects of life before I allow another person to live with me and start a family. But I am realizing a lot.

Life is not easy, but it's only as hard as we make it, for sure. I know my foundation, and I feel that someone is looking out for me. How could there not be someone who is? I have gone through so much to not believe so. And I am affirming that I will get somewhere with this job searching business by the end of this week.

There are a few possibilities, but ideally I would love working for a gym or somewhere with a spa or somewhere that incorporates living a healthy life-style. I want my life to be surrounded by things that I love and things that will lift me up. And while a lot of people are obsessed only with the money portion, I do not want to be caught up in that mindset. I know that I am prosperous and successful in my life and that where thoughts go, energy flows. I do truly believe that. With all my heart.

But, there needs to be steps taken. No one in life is going to just hand you anything. I've always had to work for what I wanted in life and what I want is to be successful, happy, and healthy. I will not settle with just doing average work. I know that I can do much better than that.

Going to talk to some people/companies tomorrow and my fingers are crossed! Also doing a charity benefit tomorrow night. So excited! My friend and I will be giving out chair massages to people during this event and I know it'll be a lot of fun! So excited!! I'm praying that  the snow holds up.

Not a big snow bunny girl. <3

"My daddy never did what he wanted. But he had what he needed. He had love. He never lost sight of what was really important. And neither will I."
-Tiana